to my wife
i need you so much
i'm so afraid of hurting you and so desperate
my comfort is knowing you love me too
you hide your desperation, or it appears in other ways (take a step back look at the situation, listen to your words and your brothers' concerns, it is clear)
sometimes when i'm not thinking clearly i'm afraid you don't need me as much as i need you
you literally said you would have killed yourself if not for me
i'm just, it's a long standing fear of mine to be unwanted
you probably hide your desperation out of pride and fear. wanting is dangerous, it is easy to push and overwhelm, and you do not know every wrinkle of my mind. pride... to need and to be denied is terrifying and dangerous for you. when two gems touch, the gentler one scratches or chips.
but i know you love me.
i think of how much i need you and i cry and i remind myself you love me too
more than i need you, i love you.
😘
you are my sun