submission
i think part of my deal with submissiveness is that my like... will? usually (but not always) gets overshadowed when any so much as Maybe wants something I'm like
well that sounds more important
and I lose track of... my ability to plan and organize and I lose my agency pretty severely??
ah
hmm that is..
hmm.
thinking about how I have basically been mostly completely intolerant of Not being in that situation.
hmm
hm
anyway