resentment
what is resentment for? what purpose does it serve? it is to what end?
i think it is for when you need to keep track of harm, to evaluate if you're cared for (this turns it into a sort of transaction)
i've felt resentment before
(seeing i was not cared for... but resentment didn't help me leave, well it did eventually... just, barely. "this person doesn't care about me, i'll go" doesn't really work for me...)
but i am free from having to keep track of harms now.
i don't need to measure...
i trust my wife with my heart
so full of love....
resentment has no purpose here
even when it is hard, there is an intimacy to being a part of his life. not just "when it's convenient" but being a part of him... and he is a part of me
this is more intimate than my dream...
i am fulfilled.