don't read this

patience

what helps ease the hunger for love (and buried possessiveness) in my bones is knowing i already have so much

when i want him i just remember: i have him


NOW CHERISH HIM


Jan 30, 2026

I think patience is the wrong idea here.

Patience is temporarily biding time until whatever you want happens.

But what I want is for him to be well (more than any superficial indicators of care).

So I'm not being patient.