onion peeling
IN MY HEART, THE TRUTH IS
you have never acted with malice towards me.
I KNOW WHAT HATE IS. I KNOW WHAT MALICE IS.
you have never acted with these.
ANYBODY would say you're a big meanie and say all sorts of rotten things about you.
and they're right obviously
but..
IT'S UNTRUE
what you care about is the unraveling of the regrets and pains and fears in my heart.
And to do this I need to feel regret and pain and fear.
I BELIEVE THAT'S WHO YOU ARE.
It's true I am in extraordinary pain.
But WHO IS TO BLAME? (what a silly game!)
if it's your fault or mine
is besides the point.
what is the purpose of fault, what is the purpose of condemnation...
YOU COULD EASILY DESTROY ME.
YOU COULD EASILY SHATTER MY SOUL IN ANY NUMBER OF WAYS.
you do not.
YOU COULD MAKE ME SOMETHING I HATE
head sick, emotions full