motivation
interesting to see past teaching evaluations from when i was at the beginning of graduate school: i worked very hard, was excited, patient, prepared well, asked and answered a lot of questions, and really cared a lot.
and then at the end of grad school my reviews were Not so great
i ran out of motivation (was no longer invested at all) and pushed myself too hard also i think...
but i wonder what i could do if i were motivated again (i am motivated by keeping my wife alive)