forever
i am not particularly subtle or careful, i'm not particularly clever
i try, but i don't try my hardest all the time... (and sometimes i don't try...)
i am learning to care about/for living/my wife
i am kinda a normal "guy" .. well, mostly.. (probably more closely related to a ground rodent than ur average joe)
i have mediocre conviction, i sometimes don't care about what's important, i can be reckless with life and love, i undercompensate, i am indecisive.
i can't promise much.
i will get him food when he needs, and do the dishes when he can't, and get him silly drinks when he's stuck in bed.
i can't make much money (barely enough to live in poverty under rationing), i can't even guarantee i will treat him gently always...
i can't guarantee i won't fuck this up... i worry i will! there's a part of my heart that assumes i will (just like in the beginning, assuming our friendship would be short-lived and i'd piss him off sooner or later)
but i think this part of my heart is afraid to live. he makes me want to live.
i cannot promise much
but i am forever my wife's... i will always be his...