cw sui
i want to fucking kill myself
i hate living like this. [no i don't this is everything i wanted.] i hate how hard it is to hold onto love.
i hate how even now i am forsaking love to cry about it.
i want to kill myself.
but i want to love him more.
but god FUCKING DAMNIT dying sure hurts (WHAT ELSE WOULD YOU CALL THIS EXPERIENCE)
nearly snuffing the flame of my soul
(i love him, this is the only joy i could ever dream of)
Oh
He doesn't want to think like this.